I MISS XINDI!!!!!!!!!
there's no one to talk to now that she'll be away for sometime...

AHHH....I"M DOWN WITH TONSILS AND THE FILMING IS TMR!
i dont even noe what caused it.
stress?
exhaustion?
heatiness?
hope it heals soon!
its irritating to talk when your throat hurtss
and i cant keep my mouth shut for long.

and i keep getting these scary nightmares about losing those people who are loved and treasured by me.
is it a sign to show anything?
am i depressed or stressed?
jocelyn said that dreams are not real cause we in a subconscious mind.
but why have these dreams been happening recently.
its so realistic..
what if the dreams actually came true?!
maybe i should sleep later.
so that when i'm really sleepy i'll just sleep without dreaming.

and i wanna go anti-rice!
though i'll eat noodles,bread etc i dont wanna eat rice as much as possible.
i have to control my diet if i wanna lose weight!

RECORD BREAKER'S FILMING
did nth much actually.
just reciting the cheer in the parade square.
and i got to know i will get interviewed ALONE on sunday!!!
like omg.....
and they want me to say the cheer ALONE in front of the camera!!!!
ahhhh.....HELP ME!!!!!!!!

oh and i had to skip my scrabble competition cuz the filming comes first.
i wanna go for scrabble actually!
i want go through to the next round..
but too late already :(

MEDIACORP RECORD BREAKERS THINGY!
thats the exciting thing thats been happening at school.
at first i told peisi that i wanted to join only as a RESERVE for the telematch.
in the end mdmyong told me i joined the cheerleaders group cuz they cant find a girl to match my height.
well,i was abit worried lah since i dunno how to speak chinese.
hmmm...except for some words lah.
well which non-chinese dunno that?!
then had to learn sentences cuz mdmyong said i might get interviewed since i'm the only non-chinese in the cheerleaders group...
and i also had to memorise the cheers in chinese of course!!
well have to really thank those who helped me out.
a BIGBIG thank you to all of you guys!!
the whole process is fun lah and i get to learn new stuffs.
but somehow feel kinda odd one out lah.
nvm lah,shall not let mdmyong and HER CLONE(people should know who) down.

YESTERDAY
morn met the rest of the cheerleaders to practise.
as the phrase goes,practise makes perfect.
thats a good thing for me cuz i actually had to meet mrzainal in the morn!
he wanted to scold me of course.
got to escape!
then during recess time,i went ot the sec2 level to chat with some of them.
and i saw mrzainal again!!
so i didnt noe where to hide.
i quickly ran away while hiding too.
i didnt want to see him!!
he's so long-winded and we have to agree to everything he says!
but i wasnt that lucky and he spotted me running away from him.
then i ran down to sec1 level and he caught me there and ask me to go and see him outside 2c classroom.
i just gave him the reason that i went to my class to get the form that he wanted when he asked why i was running and hiding from him.
i actually wanted to say,well who wants to see your face?!
my excuse very believable right!
then he gave me his usual longgg lectures.
oh and i forgot to bring the book needed for the english test and msaudreylee said i had to stay back to do the test.
but before doing the test,i had to go for the scrabble competition.
my table consisted of me,yongkian,bryan and yanrong.
actually was suprised yongkian was there cuz he didnt say anything bout participating inthe scrabble.
the game was super fun!
and i helped yongkian and he scored 18 for that single word?!
final scores, me-43, yongkian-42, bryan-41, yanrong-29.
the scores were very very close!
and got some groups who cheated luh.
anyhow form words..
you yourself know the words dont exist still wanna put.
tsk..no honesty at all!
after that went to do the english test and yongkian did his homework.
and i'm kinda bothered by some of the words msaudreylee said to me...
nvm lah..things can change!
after theat both of us went to eat at kfc.
yes i admit.
i still ate fried food though no training that day.
cant control temptations already!
then we loitered around lot1 and i was very suprised that lot1 was rather empty.
not much of kranjians..
so decided to go library to see if got any kranjians.
then coincidently saw melissa and jocelyn!
so chatted up with them and they librarian came over and scolded us for being too noisy.
basically was mine and yongkian's fault cuz we made them tak loudly.
so left the both of them to continue with their revision and went off.
wanted to do my ezlink but the office was closed!
so in the end had to go home.
ahhh...when can i do my ezlink?!
everyday's so busy and the office close damn early..
i still havent got my IC done!!!

ps;i got a new phone,like finally
W910i :D

i finally found my phone's usb wire so can upload all the pictures in my phone!
see jocelyn..i told you i'll find it!

argh....i'm down with diarrhoea!!(is this the correct spelling?)
so i skipped school today.
and my ppr hasnt even been collected!
staying at home is so boring...........

anw please try out this new cheerleading game!!
http://www.addictinggames.com/highschoolcheerleader.html
its very fun!!
even guys can play it!
TRY IT!

well havent been blogging lately.
didnt have the chance..
lately alot of things happened.
getting our results and other stuff of course.
i wont elaborate on my results.
if you wanna noe ask me.
just to sum it up,i did badly for the common test.
okay not gonna look back at the past already.
what's done cannot be unchanged.
moving on to other events...
I MET XINDI AND LYNN YESTERDAY!!!!!!
it just feels so great to see them after a very long time.
we had dinner together at pizzahut.
and they are just so sweet and the greatest seniors/friends lah!!
xindi baked for me cupcakes which had my name written over it.
and she even made the whipped cream by herself!
you guys should order from her cupcakes.
she bakes delicious ones!!
i'm not lying!!
lynn and xindi gave me a red billabong wallet as my birthday gift.
and yeah red is my favourite colour!
to top it off,i actually wanted to buy a wallet!
i also recieved cards from both of them.
i wont get sick of reading the cards cuz i'll smile everytime i read it!
and xindi used graph paper just to make me love maths more!!
oh and i have to thank lynn for the pizzahut treat.
though it was just a short dinner,i really enjoyed every bit of it.
no one ever made my birthday this special,not even my family members.
they put in so much effort into the presents and were willing to spend time with me though they were tired.
if either of them happens to see this post of mine,i'd like to thank them again for everything they did.
not only for yesterday but ever since i got to know them.
chatting to them is never boring!
and though we're not of the same age,they nvr made me feel uncomfortable in their presence.
i'll never forget them and i hope they dont forget me too!
I LOVE YOU TWO,XINDI AND LYNN!!!!!

now to the other details of what happened yesterday...
everything went so well when i was outside but the moment i reached home it turned very very wrong.
i reached home close to 9pm and my brother stopped me from entering the house.
i didnt want to argue so i just stood outside and waited till he went away.
i entered the house and he started raising his voice at me,asking questions about where i went etc.
i told him that i had dinner outside and he wasnt satisfied with my answer.
then what else could i answer..
i was indeed having dinner outside what!
and i had already informed my mother beforehand that i'll be coming home late.
like isnt that enough...
who has more authority?!
my mother of course!
and my mother wasnt even angry at me cuz i already told her about my whereabouts etc.
but i dunno why the hell my brother wanna flare up.
he keep on psychoing my mother and in the end i got scolded by her and even got caned too.
i know she always listens to my brother but the thing is,she wasnt angry at me initially but cuz my brother kept poking into the matter she vented her anger on me..
its totally unfair!
so i couldnt say much so i went online to do my f&n coursework which was due the next day.
the next issue my brother poked on was that i was signed in to msn.
what the hell is wrong with being signed on to msn?!
do homework doesnt mean cant use msn what..
i had my reasons to sign in to msn.
i was unsure on what to do and therefore had to ask questions from other ppl.
not only that,i needed zhenyi to help me to print my coursework.
without being signed in to msn i cant do those two things!
and i didnt chat that much during that time.
cuz i knew that i had to finish my coursework first.
my brother kept saying i was chatting instead of doing homework.
and he kept insisting i should sign out.
i didnt listen cuz like what i mentioned above,i needed to ask for help online.
just cause i didnt listen to him he slapped me thrice.
once on the left and twice on the right.
what kind of a brother is he?!
he cant even manage his own emotions and wanna say he's matured.
so what if you're 17,you have totally shown that you're immature by slapping me.
you can even keep your emotions in check.
and he doesnt even have morals.
resorting to violence to get things done his way.
i didnt even retaliate once.
i could have hit him back if i wanted too.
but what for..a fight would happen and cause more troubles.
he's not a man luh.
man dont hit women.
i thought after all these the night would be peaceful one again cuz i really couldnt finish up any homework at that moment!
my brother made so much noise and my mother even supported him...
i was so helpless at that time.
it was as if i had no one to turn to.
i wanted to look up to my mother but she was already on my brother's side.
i really felt like running away from home that night but decided i shouldnt make decisions rashly.
so i just ignored them and continued with my coursework.
because of my brother,i cant even eat properly now.
i cant chew on my right side of the mouth and i have toothaches often now.
not long after that i heard loud thumpings from above the ceiling.
i thought it was some random couple quarelling.
but when my grandfather opened the door,it turned out to be my aunt and uncle(i think they were both drunk) fighting.
its normal for arguments among couples but turning to fighting etc?
thats too much isnt it...
so in the end we had to stop each otehr from attacking one another.
but we couldnt control their mouths and they kept hurling abuses and insults and one another.
suddenly,my aunt went up and slapped my uncle.
then my uncle couldnt take it and he went to hit her back.
they broke out in a fight and we had to pull them apart.
the arguement was between my aunt and uncle but they made my grandmother,me and my mother injured when we were trying to stop them from hitting one another.
in the end,i called up the police as the matter just got worser.
the police came along with the paramedics and statements were taken down etc.
both of them are plain inconsiderate.
they made so much noise the whole night that we couldnt sleep at all.
i went to sch the next day feeling damn tired cuz i didnt get to sleep!!
which resulted in killer headaches the whole day..
even when i'm blogging now,i'm still having a splitting headache.
actually i didnt want to blog bout these incidents but like ppl always say,you shouldnt bottle things up.
so thats why i decided to blog about it.

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
VIOLENCE DOESNT SOLVE ANYTHING.
IT ONLY BRINGS ABOUT MORE COMPLICATIONS.

ps;sorry if my post very disorganised etc.
cant really think with a headache..

TODAY IS SUCH A "JUMBLED UP FEELINGS" DAY!!!
i was having the time of my life until i stepped into my house...
shall elaborate some otehr time cuz i'm really busy now :(

WENT TO MARINA SQUARE WITH JOCELYN AND YONGKIAN!!!
met the duo at jurongeast and i happened to see barry too!
trained down to cityhall.
i didnt think the trip was that long compared to jocelyn.
(aiyah,what can you expect from someone who's weak..)
first thing we did upon reaching marina square was looking at the directory.
good thing yongkian suggested it cuz marina square is damn big and anyone can just get lost inside the mall.
couldnt decide where to eat as each of us had different prefences.
in the end went to the foodcourt since there would be alot of varieties.
i bought grilled fish with rice while the other two bought japanese food.
yongkian ate fried food when he's not supposed too!
and tootyyeoh stole some fish from me!!
went to walk around after eating and yk bought his wallet from quicksilver(supposed to be jocelyn bought for him as a 7 month late bday present!!)
jocelyn bout herself a ripcurl pencilcase and she didnt believe how much it cost!
yongkian also bought for a waterbottle from quicksilver.
i didnt buy anything.
see..i can hold my temptations well!
had nothing to do and we went to millenia walk.
we went to this big warehouse with electronic gadgets,beds and sofas etc.
yongkian suggested us to try out the sofas and beds and the beds were damn comfy lah!
very good for sleeping and "ahem-ahem",some other things(you should noe)
jocelyn got really sleepy after trying the beds!
(told you she's very weak)
i bought some chocs and a sherbet fizz thingy from candy empire.
at first the sherbet thingy tasted dusgusting but the more i ate it,the more i liked it.
jocelyn said it tasted like vomit!
disgusting lah she!
made me wanna puke at that moment..
we walked around in search for a seat.
and jocelyn wanted to go home cuz she very tired.
the moment she said that,we spotted two empty benches right ahead of us!!
jocelyn started playing with my handphone camera and took random shots of me and yongkian.
and yongkian also took photos!
the most unglam shot of me was the one where i was showing off my armpit!
i was actually scratching my ear and yongkian go and snap!
jocelyn was getting high and crazy and went around snapping people's photos.
she even took yongkian's nostrils!!
after sometime i took a small ?rock/pebble? and threw in onto the ground.
it landed near a guy and he was like looking around angrily to see what caused the sound.
he's like so .....
the object never even hit him!
he looked rather angry so we left the place in a hurry.
walked back to the mrt station and trained down to marina bay cuz can get seats.
jocelyn dared me to do some silly stuffs like running out of the train we were in and touch the opposite glass door.
luckily the train door never close!!
oh and jocelyn today keep trying to push me!
dun waste your effort lah.
i'm so much stronger than you.
so you can never push me off!!
and jocelyn's hiccups make her look like she having fits or something!
i alighted at dhoby ghout and went to work.
today was just loads of fun!

ps;i wanna watch meet the spartans!!
pss;(to jocelyn)i'll find the wire soon and upload all the photos!!!

I OFFICIALLY STARTED WORKING TODAY!!
and i wanna go bowling badly!!
i screwed up my oral too :(

JOCELYN AHTOOT YEOH SHU YI THE ROCK WHO ROCKS!!!
i've known her since sec1.
and now we're already sec3!
i still remember me and her going to limbang mac often after sch during sec1.
and we did stupid stuffs like taking the kids machine ride outside the macs.
i had to admit i was afraid of her during my sec1 times.
you may think its weird that i'm so much bigger than her but i'm afraid of her.
well dont ask me,i myself dont noe the reason why.
in the end we ended up being shooter partners and also had to work together even more when she was voted to be vicechairperson in sec2.
we exchanged alot of smses about netball and class and netball etc.
she was the girl who was just crazy over netball,to the extent she'll die without netball.
even her dream job has something to do with netball!
other good points:
she's caring(but really not obvious).
she's crazy most of the times.
she attitudes people(very rare nowadays)and talks to them very soon after she just attituded them.
she's forever praising herself but would never agree if i praised her.
she doesnt want to accept the fact that her body has all the curves and that she's not fat!
you'll never win an argument against her(try if you like!).
she's such a retard and a tooty person and you cant help smiling at her actions.
she loves pigs but are afraid of them(weird??).
she cant differentiate between a pig and a dog(weirder??),
(the list is never ending)..........
definitely someone you cant forget after you've known her!
lastly,she's physically and mentally stronger than me.
ps:i hope coach wont change you as GA!!!

I DIDNT GO HOME SINCE FRIDAY!!!
its an accomplishment in a way okay.hahas.
but before you let your mind wander....i did bathe during the 2 days!!
weekends are getting so boring and there's nothing much to do.
my main purpose of blogging is actually cuz i promised melissa something.
something i'll elaborate later on...
i wished holidays were longer!
there's so much to do in such a short time.
and when its back to sch we have to work hard again cuz mid year exams are coming.
well,thats a students life!

[b][c=1]melissa}[/c][/b] [c=4]requitted-love@bs.com[/c] said:
put -melissa who is actually damn smart
SEE THIS!!!
melissa self-praising sia!!!
hahas.okay but i have to agree at least to some of it.
i saw how hardworking she was for the common test.
well maybe i saw it only on certain days but its enough to tell me that you wanted to do well.
(only for this time)you're not an idiot cuz only fools and idiot dun want to do well for studies.
for netball,she has to be the most graceful player!
she can jump and land etc but still look elegant.
can go join dance already!
oh and she can fly on court!
even when(as on-lookers see it)the ball is like out of her reach,she can somehow still get the ball.
lastly,you're the BEST IDIOT ever okay! :D

ps;idiot!see..i praise you already what!
all these are facts.
you dun want me to write things that's not true rite!

quote of the day:
SHORT IS SWEET!

I CAN BE A PSYCHIC ALREADY!
reason1:
me and jiaqi were studying fn 15mins before the paper started.
both of us nvr studied fn the nite before so we rushed thru the topics tested.
then i randomly picked out question for jiaqi to answer.
then went i recieved the test paper i immediately thought of jiaqi!
you noe why?!
cuz all the questions that came out were the ones i asked jiaqi earlier on!!
damn accurate lah....
so me and jiaqi had an easy time doing the test.
reason2:
i helped some sec2's with their lit exams.
and some of the things i said came out!
so this proves i can be a fortune teller rite!!
ss was manageable too.
rushed thru the whole paper and i elaborated too much already.
i started my last SEQ question when there was only 15mins left!
luckily i still finsihed the whole paper.
maths was like shit as usual.
shall not elaborate too much as i need study for hist and physics.
all the best people!

quote of the day:
YOU TRY TO MAKE ME GO TO A REHAB
BUT I SAID NO NO NO