firstly,HI JOCELYN!
yes,today was the day,
the day that determines our next step of education,
and also another closer step to finding out who we will be in the future.
okay,enough of that.
i swear i was super scared(though nothing still makes my heart beat as wildly as compared to zonal matches.lol!) and nervous as i just didnt have a good feeling bout my results.
but many ppl told me it was normal and i did manage to calm myself down but not for long.
i mean who wouldnt keep thinking of their results right!
so went up to the hall and went thru the normal MSG,distinction rates etc.
was quite shocked with the list of top 12 scholars in kranji.
so i wasnt really focusing on the slides.
was more worried bout my results.
i was the last one to take my results so the tension was really building up while i waited.
so finally got my results and here it is:
english A1
maths C5
science(physics/chemistry) A2
combined humanities(social studies/history) B3
mother tongue A1
food&nutrition A2
CCA A1

L1R5 14
L1B4 9

overall i'm really quite contented cuz i did target to get at least a ten or below for L1B4.
i'm really very happy with my science and english cuz both went way above my expectations!

but at the same time,i cant help feeling disappointed over my F&N and humanities.
for F&N,it was just a lil bit of disappointment cuz i know what dragged me down(yeah,that bloody coursework).

but for humanities,i really thought i'll get a distinction.
i know i didnt finish my history but at least an A2 would've been sufficient.
it's not like i didnt study.
in fact,i think i studied among the hardest in my history class,though i know i look like a slacker.
i studied more topics than what the teachers asked too and tried not to leave anything out.
and another reason i studied so hard was cuz ms.nat said she'll lose her job if she couldnt produce at least 5 distinctions from 4B.
i wouldnt want to carry this guilt on my shoulders for the rest of my life.

so,i didnt really bother going around asking bout ppl's results,except maybe for yk's and a few others,since i was quite bothered over humanities.
so sat down and organised the grad tee etc.

ms.nat did come up to me and tried talking but i really couldnt face her.
like how could i?
she pinned such high hopes on me so i didnt really dare look at her face.
she began saying,'dont be so sad etc.you did your best etc.'
i knew i couldnt let her carry on if not i'll just let go.haha!
so i walked off.
hahas.she tried talking another time and i walked off again!
i know it's rude but i really dont want to just break down in front of her.lol.
so ms.foo also did the same thing but i did the same thing i did to ms.nat.
lol.the only teacher who managed to talk to me was ms.low i guess.
since i was happy with my C5.
i really expected a C6 cuz i didnt finish paper 2.

so finally felt ready enough to find ms.foo but i was wrong lah!
she started those kinda talk bout you did great etc all over again and i really couldnt control alre,so i cried luh.
i still promised myself when i was in pri sch that i'll nvr cry over my studies.hahas!
i dunno lah.it's guilt mixed with shame mixed with disappointment plus i hate those talks that'll make you go all emotional!hahas!
went to find ms.nat and the same thing happened again.hahas!
aww..ms.nat and ms.foo said they'll miss me when they hugged me.lol!

went up to staffroom to find ms.nat again after the whole thing and asked her if she was serious about the losing the job thingy.
in the end she said she might just get scolded(the job's thingy not confirmed).lol.
i mean it was such a huge relief,i seriously will feel even worse if she really lost her job.

went down to watch juniors train afterwards and coach asked the onlookers to do reviews!
quite fun yet beneficial since the players can learn from mistakes and we're watching the game in great detail so as to not miss out on mistakes etc.
chatted with coach after training and realised i do want to take up umpiring and coaching courses soon.
not only do i want to know and play the game,i wanna have qualifications in it too.
who knows i might make a career out of my passion?

went to toa payoh to find my mum and went off to orchard to look at sports shoes.
i really need one badly,like ASAP ):

ps;went to find lyndi during recess today and she said get her something from lot 1(i offered of course,just that she refused to tell me what she want.haha!).she said if i bought what she was thinking of,means i'll be like sort of the best senior.lol.so i really had no idea and just decided to get kinder surprise since she asked for it before and turned out to be she was thinking of kinder surprise too.hahas!quite cool telepathy right!and i passed the test she gave me!! (:

pss;i was outside 1E waiting for yk when lyndi texted me saying she was getting bullied by some sec1s.so she told me to come quickly to the canteen.and i did went quickly,in fact i ran.lol!the thing is,i did remember telling her i would always come to her rescue if she needed help.lol!so found out some sec1 boys were actually harassing her and wenlu/causing a nuisance so i went up to the sec1 kid and actually pulled his shirt and threatened him.i know i know.it sounds evil.but i stand up for friends okay!lol.those boys were actually scared just cuz of my size but after threatening him,the small boy sort of looked as though he wasnt happy.we'll see if he wants revenge (:

psss;i wore red undies today for luck! :D