REPUBLIC NETBALL CHALLENGE
played 4 games altogether.
sengkang, north vista, chinese girls' sch, zhenghua (in order)
initially, we went there with the mindset to just play for fun since we thought the schools were very tough and we didnt have the main players around to win.
the players who went were: me,jocelyn,yuting,amanda,serern,kahfong,xinni,jayne,suqi,jingy
but after playing the first two games,which we won,there was a boost in morale and suddenly there was hope of advancing on to the next round.
anyway,we basically played the ball among 3 ppl only.
lols.like jocelyn will start the center pass and pass to yuting,yuting then passes back to jocelyn and the ball will be lobbed in to me alre.
hahas.imagine how tiring it was for the two of them.
they didnt have a choice i guess since our attackers were not running out.
halfway thru the two games,the opponents realised what we were doing and tried to double on yuting but well,yuting's just too slick and pro for them to stop her!hahas!
thankfully my shots were on-form that day.
it could also be due to the indoor pole.hahas!
everytime when i play indoors,my shots are exceptionally better than when i play at outdoor courts!
ps;i'd say i liked the north vista game most out of all the games played (:
pps;sherwin was awesome that day for all of the juniors' games.

anyway,there was one pass i really like!!
jocelyn threw a lob to me.
i saw xinni running in from behind.
so instead of going for that pass thrown to me,i stood there and let xinni have it.
hahas!it's a nice fake okay.
if you see it,you'd agree too (:

so here comes the big part,jocelyn had to leave for tuition after the two games.
she did try changing her tuition time etc but her tutor said it wasnt possible.
of course i got worried.
for both games,we could win cuz yuting had someone to work with.
plus without her around,we didnt have a center!!
so strategised again and played the scgs game.
the first quarter was actually good.
i did have the hope that like, 'hey,they're not really that strong.we can actually win them.'
at the end of first quarter,we were leading by 1 goal in fact! (6-5)
carried on with the game but then things started to go downhill.
our attackers all of a sudden dont want to run out for center pass.
okay lah,i cant really blame them.
maybe it's cuz they got blocked out by the defenders.
so the score got dragged from 6-5 to 15-6.
the ball couldnt even come down to my side!!
i was so damn free for the 2nd half lah.
the scgs GS even tricked our defender with the same move for 4 consecutive times.
lols.but cant deny,the scgs shots were nice.
they're really good with far shots.
almost all chop!

after that was up against zhenghua.
the sec3s werent around to watch this game cuz they went to eat i think and our game was brought forward so they came only after the game ended.
so back to the game,
suqi played C for this game while yuting played GD cuz we saw that we cant afford to give up on defence after playing with scgs.
hmm,i think out of all the center passes,only one or two went thru.
but then,cant blame her since she's not an experienced C i guess.
we were down by about 5 goals after the first half.
so switched back to yuting as C in the second half.
still,couldnt really pass down the ball as no one wanted to run out.
yuting only could make use of amanda to bring down the ball.
i think i only managed to get the ball when yuting had no choice but to force the ball in from the center third.
we managed to draw the gap up to two balls but we still lost in the end.
yeah,to zhenghua,the school which we should have won easily.
even when i told xindi,she was super shocked.

i know the main team players were not there etc,but if you had watched the games yourself,you would also agree with me that the opponents weren't really that tough.
i was really really very disappointed when we lost.
if you lost knowing that the opponents were tough and you already put up whatver fight you can.
but the thing is,i hate the helpless kind of feeling.
like you're already giving your best but you cant beat the opponents just cuz you dont have enough players.
yuting was playing well,my shots were fine but we still lost.
we just needed one more person who will run so the ball can get passed down.
i honestly believed if we just had that one more player,we would have won both games and advanced on.
if not both games,at least win zhenghua and advance through.
we just needed to get thru and on monday,we'll have jocelyn back again.
sadly,no one on our team could really play C :(

i wont really be blunt lah but just to vent out my frustration.
i mean as an attacker,you should know it's your duty to offer and help in bringing down the ball.
i mean it's not possible to get a score if the ball cant even come down to the goal circle.
and you know also that if you dont have height,you shouldnt hide behind the defender.
if a non-netballer does not do too well,i can understand why.
i know our defense side was a little weak without yuting but at the very least,you could try.
some games,you were fantastic,i wont deny it.
but some other games,i just sensed the lack of effort.
hahas.i think i've never shouted this much on court before.
never have i felt this helpless on court before.
lols.anyway,i hope those i shouted at etc that day will understand that whatever happens is only on court.
as in i'm only angry for whatever happened on court.
it wont affect my attitude towards you as a junior/friend.
so if let's say(just my thinking),you feel like smsing me but dont do so cuz you think i have something against you,i dont :D
plus,if you guys also think i was too harsh with the shoutings and scoldings etc,i'm sorry.

anyway,i really want to apologise to jayne and serern cuz you guys didnt play at all.
after chatting with jocelyn and doing some self-reflection,i dont think i'll feel good too if i did not play at all.
so i'm really sorry that we were selfish and so bent on winning that we didnt gave you guys a chance.
i'm feeling quite guilty over it.
so i'm apologising on behalf of the team for not letting you guys play.
and i'd really like to thank you for coming down all the way to watch and support us etc.
it means alot and i appreciate it (:

honestly,i took some time to get over the loss.
i dunno why i got so angry over the games.
i even sort of shouted at meixuan when the juniors came back and she asked bout the results.
hahas!she got nth to do with it then still get shouted at.
i think it's mainly cuz i really wanted to get something out of it.
i know we had a chance.
that's why i was even more determined to win those games.
but then the higher your expectations are,the harder you'll fall if you dont achieve it.
while walking with jocelyn when she needed to go off,she did make me even more hyped up for the remaining two games.
she kept saying over and over that we had to win.
so of course,i didnt want to disappoint her.
but then some things cant be helped.
at least i knew i gave my best :D
that night,i fell asleep thinking of all the 'what if we had....'
i know i slept way earlier than usual(i usually sleep around 2am on weekends) and i only woke up at around 6pm the next day!
hahas!i think i was too tired+sad+disappointed+angry so i just slept on it.
but after talking to a few ppl,i finally let it go and now i'm concentrating fully on my O's :D
yes,tourism course!
heard the cut-off points are quite high.
shall work hard for it then (:

anyway,i got talent-scouted that day during the RP challenge!
hahas!the person will contact me if they're any games they want me to play in etc.
hopefully,they're alot after O's!
i dunno if i have to play with the RP team or play with the others who got chosen etc but whatever it is,i'm up for it!

anyway,CONGRATS JUNIORS for getting 3rd!
i know you guys fought hard and even had some unfair umpires etc.
but be proud you guys still triumphed over all those obstacles!
particularly to meixuan,you guys still won despite what the gk did to you!! :D
i'll cheer loudly when you guys recieve the medals on monday (:

to yuting,jocelyn and amanda:
i really cherished those few games we had on sat.
it might be the last time we actually go for an official netball competition together.
though,it's not the full team,i appreciate your presence and your effort in the games.
i really hope we do join some other competitions in the future together.
but if not,i cherish those moments on sat.
win or lose(or my ankle getting more swollen.hahas!),i still wouldnt trade the time spent on sat for anything else :D