what do you do when you start to think differently of a teammate?

being in kranji,i was surrounded by ppl who were constantly fighting to get into the school team;fighting to get a chance to play on court and prove yourself.even more specifically,i looked at jocelyn and could clearly see the drive and desire to make it to school team.and even for myself,no matter how close i am with meixuan,we both understood that we are gonna fight for the same position and we are friendly to each other etc but yet,we fight all out when it comes to making it to the main team.

so now in jj when i hear one player saying that not making it into the school team is not a big deal,of course i'll get super shocked.shock is only one part of it.there're many other emotions i felt too when i knew of it.but hard to put it down here.just pick out the few strong emotions.lol.so i definitely felt disappointed too.like 'i have such a teammate?'am i too sensitive for taking the person's words too seriously?

i dont want to think in such a way towards a teammate ):
yaoshuyi,how?!