regent match
finally it was the big day.
the most awaited day so far.
i was really looking forward to this match.
the day was damn hot luhs.
shoot abit then perspire so much!
juniors played their game first.
i dunno how to describe their game.
can go crazy juz watching them play.
they really very clueless bout netball.
then it was our turn to play.
kinda nervous at first.
but was feeling better as the first quarter went by.
we were leading at first.
then regent catched up.
from the second quarter onwards our performance dropped alot.
it became from bad to worse.
i couldnt move around tat much on court.
GK and GD sandwiched me until i can even move abit.
well juz blame myself for not being able to break free.
not tat skillfull afterall.
okay i dunno why.
but dunno sucks.
i juz dun like today.
well maybe cuz we lost.
and i couldnt even help out yuting or jocelyn on court.
then wads the point of me playing.
juz stand there and get doubled.
makes me feel so helpless.
okay so i saw joan today.
yeah at first was happy.
but now even joan cant tempt me.
i juz dunno wads wrong with myself.
i was quite high wen i was in sch.
but now like dunno what happened luh.
never mind lah if i didnt get to shake joan's hand.
or chat with her.
i told u already.
not so tempted.
it was the first time we lost a friendly match.
does this show we are deproving?
or the need and desire to win is juz not there anymore?
i really feel lousy bout today's game.
now at home my two bro wun stop saying....
kranji netball lousy.
kranji netball sucks.
i really cant hear this kind of shit.
its just sooner or later when they'll start mocking me and the team.
maybe it was my fault for not being able to break free from the double.
if i had break free then we could have scored more goals.
then the sec4's wanted to noe the results.
and they sure expected us to win right.
i felt even more worse when told lynn the result.
she asked why we didnt win.
i knew she was disappointed lah.
how could i disappoint her........
guess the main reason i'm feeling so low now is cuz we lost.
even not talking or shaking hands with joan matters so much anymore.
guess ppl will get surprised by my last sentence?
maybe yuting will....
it really sucks when u are helpless and cant do much on court.